This New Winter

This new winter

Moves slow and warm 

Even on the cold days 

Snow sweats in my palm

When I head home, 

I walk there 

cold sweat with a cigarette, 

smoke in my hair

Hours in a day left open

They could go by in many ways 

I’ve done all of them 

This new winter is settling in

breaking my heart 

forgetting the good things

Yesterday 

It rained 

hand to our heads

A touch to calm 

I sing this song as a letter

To my loved ones far away

Happy, but bitter too 

this new 

simple soup

I’ve been so worried about you

And who am I turning into

This new winter

Wearing in Month to month

bathtubs, laundry and lightbulb moths

This new winter moves

Slow and warm 

Even on the cold days 

Snow sweats in my palm

You either cope or melt

Cope or melt 

Cope or melt 

Anger is a pair of pants 

But happiness is balance

Overwhelmed in gloss